All this time, it has been a whirlwind. I have been working so hard for my masters degree. I defend in early march and I finally finish this rat race. Then a couple more months i graduate and life goes on. The next stage begins.
I feel i have grown so much and aged so much. Im still me but things have been tacked on one by one. Today I saw myself change into a person I never thought I could be. A confident person. Calm. In control. Strong. Direct. It was just a class exercise but I felt so different after that. Its still too much to believe. I am still that afraid young girl inside. But at least I glimpsed at what I could be. What was and now. Maybe it was a stupid small class exercise but it made me believe that maybe I can let go of the fear. Have more confidence in myself.
I realized I have not had time to reflect much in lj these past few years. I couldn't get the words to come out.
Just a few more months. I can see it now.